Taking for granted

If I’ve said it once, I’ll say it many times again, one of the most important lessons taught in the BSH program is not to make any assumptions. Taking things for granted is kind of an assumption, and despite knowing I shouldn’t do it, especially in this line of work, sometimes it’s hard. I wrote of a patient a long while back, comparing her to Eeyore in her demeanor. I don’t believe I’d be violating HIPAA to name her Peggy (since it’s a nick name and I’m not naming the facility). She has been around since I started with Compassionate Care. Despite her melancholy eyes and voice, she expresses deep appreciation whenever I come play for her. She almost always says “I missed you” and often wonders if I’ve been ill when I’ve been away for long. Lately even my untrained eyes could see her deteriorating, but it really hit today when, for the first time, she didn’t sing along with Eidelweiss. I played it for her every time because she loved it so much and always sang along. It almost brought tears to my eyes when she just stared at the harp. I know she still loved it, though, since she was so relaxed and fell asleep.

That was another thing, she’d often stare at me while I played. Honestly it made me feel a bit fidgety, but I could really see today how far she’s gone since she could barely lift her eyes. She did stare at the harp, though, so that’s a positive. She was still sitting up in her chair, and she still eats lunch with the rest of the residents, but it’s sad seeing her slipping away like that. I’ve only seen her every two weeks (or three or four) for the last year or so- I can’t imagine how it would be with a close relative. Honestly I kind of dread getting the e-mail of patient population updates where we see who’s passed or otherwise changed their status and some day seeing her name.

One Response to “Taking for granted”

  1. Becky says:

    Hi Kitty, I just want you to know how much your posts mean to me, especially before I started to do harp therapy. I have now been playing at a hospital for about a month and have started my own harp therapy blog and would love it if you stopped by and visited, or left any words of wisdom, since you have been doing this much longer than I have. Hope to read a post from you soon!


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